Confessions of a (former) teenage communist Werewolf-Part 2 (3lmer-Vision)
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Date: 2008-05-08, 10:21PM CDT
I am no longer comfortable calling E.R.T. as such.
So I now decided to call him "Mr.R."
(Albeit that "R" is for Racist.)
Nonetheless, I was rather moved by Mr.R's brief historical account on how he became the (albeit angry and caustic) liberal & racist pundit of CL-Milwaukee.
I have not always been the Bible-thumping NeoCon misfit that you have all hate & only grown to tolerate. (Albeit E.S.C. was rather forgiving pretty quickly.)
Raised in a good Greenfield home and family of 5, I developed a rather aggressive appetite for "euphoriants" at a young age. My Dad was rather blessed by the U.A.W. as a skilled precision machinist & grinder with a good paying job.
I was raised democrat, and hated what I called "the corporate swill".
My political influences ranged from Frank Zappa to classic Democrat party lines.
My whole family was democrats.
I began a criminal career in sales of "street pharmaceuticals" at the ripe age of 14...Daily marijuana use soon after...popping valium like mad, having beer for breakfast...cocaine by age 15...using heroin by 16...to name just a few.
In the 80's my "side-line" cocaine sale surpassed marijuana sales, using a street value of $1400 on cocaine per week, having beer with a methadone chaser by 19...Hepatitis C & dirty needle to follow soon after.
I was not responsible for anything...raised with cultural southside racist values.. would not do illict trade with blacks because I could see their rip-off strategies. (Which meant I had instead gotten ripped off by crafty older white drug addicts.)
I cursed in my moments of anguish against God and wondered why God would not strike me dead when I mocked him.(?)
Having become emotionally whacked & unstable and physically dependent on alcohol & poly-drug use,
On 8/6/85 My being "born again" had started compliments of West Allis undercover police and their rather assertive SWAT team.
After the legal stripping of my worldly possessions, I landed my sorry self in a halfway house for addicts and alcoholics.
I was taught the wisdom of Bill W. and Dr.Bob, and prospered from their teachings. The old Men in the Racine Alano Club had gotten me to see I was a modern day "prodigal son", that it would soon be time for me to turn from the Dead Kennedy's or Jim Morrison value systems. That I and we, are responsible for ourselves and the choices we make. That my attitude of entitlement had to die.
When I asked advice on how recoup illicit drug profits back from non-paying "fronts" (for my fund my legal defense), it was the black men I met that had the courage to set me straight.
(The white guys later said they would not call me on my criminality 'because they liked me'...and because we were in "white guys" caucus mode...something called "criminal code")
One day while conversing with a male prostitute (in the halfway house) I began my reconstruct of values...no more of the "anything goes"...Frederick Nietzsche (albeit having a couple of good quotes) yet is overwhelmingly full of crap.
I have become skilled in the paradox of being strong in my powerlessness
(12 step theory) After 19 years of 12 step, I found countless steps of the bible, and the teaching of Jesus Christ.
My "recovery" discipline is now "Bible powered". 12 steps just got too easy for me after 2005.
I'll just assume you pundits will figure out how NeoCon conversion became a part of my process and manifest destiny as described in Romans 8:28 & 29.
I have found immeasurable profit in NEVER having alcohol or illicit drugs in over 22 years.
Eastside Chris had either directly (or indirectly?) influenced me to consider voting for Obama because I wanted to punish (the repugs?) for abandoning their conservative base with conservative under-miner like McCain.
But the future of the Supreme court called for me to (reluctantly) decide to support McCain.
Maybe I'll regret my confessions later? Might be used against me?
I guess. After all, we're fallible humans.
So, now you know why 3lmer J. NeoCon was a teenage communist werewolf.
Sort of ;)
Viva La Coffee !
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